Atheist to Christian Testimony. Powerful Testimony Atheist Embrace Jesus - Jennifer Fullwiler. Shalom, this is the story:
My name is Jennifer Fulwiler. I was a lifelong atheist and I'm now a Christian. I write a blog called conversion diary. It's a chronicle of the ups and downs of what it's like to have faith after an entire life of being an atheist. I never believed in God not even as a child. When my dad would come read books to me at night. I believe I was in fourth or fifth grade and our nightly reading was Carl Sagan's Cosmos.
So I was very much raised on a diet of science and reason and evidence-based rational thought. You believe what you can prove. I believe that I have hands because I can see them. I believe in a black hole even though I've never seen one. But you know science can tell us about the way matter moves around it that we can observe. And so this very rational worldview always made sense to me on a fundamental level.
Before I got to the point that I could really start researching faith with an open mind, something had to happen and for me that occurred after my first child was born. I looked down and thought what is this baby. And I thought well from a pure atheist materialist perspective he is a collection of randomly evolved chemical reactions. And I realized if that's true that all the love that I feel for him it's all nothing more than chemical reactions in our brains. And I look down at him and I realized that's not true. It's not the truth.
I didn't know where to go from there but that's what prompted me to start researching topics of spirituality. I got my books about Buddhism and you know and about every religion except for Christianity. Basically I assumed anything could be true except for Christianity. And my husband who considered himself a non practicing Christian said you might want to start with the one major world religion whose founder claimed to be God.
After all that's a really easy claim to disprove if it's not true. And I thought well that's a fair fight. I was such a through-and-through atheist that I have to admit I was ignorant of all these great Christian thinkers. What about Thomas Aquinas. What about Agustin. What about Descartes. I mean all of these great thinkers throughout history were not only Atheists but Christians.
And I was really surprised when I actually found these very intellectually rigorous books where people talked about their faith from a place of reason and not a place of emotion. And when I looked at evidence like that on the whole I started to think something explosive, something world-changing happen in first century Palestine.
You have this guy named Jesus who comes from a lower-class region. Gains a bunch of lower-class followers and ends up being executed by the Romans. And yet in droves you see thousands and thousands of Jews giving up these traditions that they had held dear for thousands of years. And the people who joined in on this new religion there was no benefit for them. It was a persecuted religion. People who joined this religion didn't tend to work out too well. They tended to lose social status and often face death.
But I wasn't yet, you know, convinced and ready to become a Christian. And so I started a blog. I just threw out every hard question I could think of. I just put it all out there on the blog. And as I would watch the atheists and the Christians go back and forth and debate. I realized we Atheist, we don't have the lock on reason that I thought we did. But what I saw with the Christians was they had that too. They had all the knowledge of science and material world that we atheists did. But yet they had the total picture of the human experience of love and triumph and hope, and you know, they could articulate that in a way that the atheist couldn't.
It wasn't until after I had made the intellectual decision to become a Christian that I think I finally believed it in my heart. When I set my pride aside and said okay, I feel like I'm talking to myself but Jesus I want a relationship with you. I want to know you even though I don't know how to go about doing that.
This piece entered my life, This joy the way my whole being was transformed. There was just no question that this is somebody real.
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Powerful Testimony Atheist Embrace Jesus | Jennifer Fullwiler.
I think that not only am i more alive now that I'm a Christian but I'm so much more intellectually alive. Finally nothing is off limits. I can ask questions about science but I can also ask questions about the spiritual world and I'm free to really seek the truth.
- Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. - (John 14:6).
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