Beautiful Testimony Of A Former Prostitute. A Former Prostitute Gives Her Testimony. Shalom, this is the story:
Susan:
"I grew up in a home where there was alot of emotional physical and verbal abuse."
As a child Susan lived in fear. Her stepfather abused Susan and her sister. And Susan's mother was very cold and detached.
Susan:
"I always felt like I wasn't loved. I was felt like I needed her a child to be loved."
When Susan was a teenager she looked for love and meaning, anywhere she could find it. She turned to drugs to fill the void, cocaine, marijuana and alcohol.
Susan:
"At that time I also started to become very sexually active. I explore teenage biography. So any everything bad that can really happen in my life was happening at that moment."
Susan admits there was no place for God in her life. In fact she blamed God for all of her problems.
Susan:
"I knew that there was a God but I never thought about Him. I never thought to even pray because at that point I was angry, God. I thought. 'well God if you love me. How could you put me in this situation ?'"
Susan left home when she was 17. Her stepfather though divorce from her mom made Susan a unique offer.
Susan:
"He said well I'll tell you what why don't you come live with me. I have an apartment. You can take all the time you need to get a side job and get your diploma and everything will work out great you can decide what you want to do."
What seemed to be a good idea soon turned into a nightmare.
Susan:
"He said you're too pretty of a girl. Let's do modeling. Now I was probably close to seventeen years old at that time. And to me that just sounded wonderful. I thought great."
Susan was convinced she would have a new life with an exciting career in modeling.
Susan:
"So he took me to the first call. I thought that there would be a photographer in that house but it wasn't. There was no equipment. I had soon realized that my stepfather had made me a prostitute. And that's basically how it all started."
But Susan could make a lot of money. This was the beginning of her new career. Before long Susan got pregnant and had a son she named Colton. She also met a man named Craig and they moved in together. Susan kept her job as a prostitute but business flowed and they were running out of money.
Susan:
"So I decided that I needed to go to a bigger city and that we would go up to Chicago. And make a lot more money and big one big happy family."
So they made the big move to Chicago. That's when bad turned to worse. Susan was busted for prostitution and put in jail. Her son was at home with a babysitter.
Susan:
"There was no blanket. It was just a hard bench. There was no pillow. There was no water. They did not feed me. They gave me one slice of Bologna with two pieces of white bread. That's it, nothing to drink."
The passing hours seemed like days. All Susan could think about was Colton.
Susan:
"I started to feel really dehydrated. I started to feel very hungry but there was nothing that I could do about it. I felt so stripped of everything. And I started to feel like there was no hope. 24 hours turned into two days. Two days turned into three. There were many times when I would call for the guard and she wouldn't come. These guards had no mercy at all for my situation. I was basically treated like ... like I didn't exist."
Susan was desperate what another inmate told her didn't help.
Susan:
"I told you you were never going to get out of here. There is no way out and it was then that I broke. I started become frantic and I remember just shaking those cell bars and calling somebody. And nobody would come and nobody would hear me. And I got down to the floor and I just said God whatever you do, this is my son, don't take my son."
"I deserve this but, he doesn't. That was the first time that I had cried out to God in years. And I heard God say to me, you're the one that got yourself into that jail, but I'm gonna get you out, but you've got to come to me, you've got to love me. This is not my will for your life. And I thought, but I'm so dirty, I'm so stained, I've committed adultery, I've slept with husbands. These husbands have wives. These wives don't even know what I did. I just couldn't believe it. And because I just felt so stained and He said you I love you. And I want you to come to Me. But it's got to stop now. You've got to change."
While in jail Susan accepted Jesus as her Savior.
Susan:
"And I thought to myself I'll do whatever You want. Just get me out here get me to my son. Just please let him be okay. He's just a baby."
God answered Susan's prayer after four days of trying to get Susan out of jail Craig finally succeeded. Susan was released. Susan told Craig that she wanted to get out of the business. He left her and Susan and Colton took a bus back to Florida.
Susan:
"As I wrote on that bus trip Colton would just sit on my lap and he would just look at me with the most beautiful baby blue eyes. And he rested his head on my shoulder and his head stayed there. That was a very long 24 hours. Tut I knew that I had to change. I knew that I had to change."
Three years after dedicating her life to God Susan met Steven. They've been happily married for 13 years and have children of their own.
Susan:
"My marriage to Steve I wanted to be really special. And I walked down the aisle wearing a white wedding dress. And I thought God I'm not ... I'm not worthy of this. People walk down the aisle and white wedding dress who were virgins. I am far from that and I heard God say to me, your made us white as snow to Me."
Her days as a prostitute are distant memories now. But Susan will never forget what God has done for her.
Susan:
"For a long time I thought I wasn't worthy because I thought that nobody could possibly have a past like me, drugs, abuse, prostitution, teenage pornography. I mean to me it didn't get any worse than that. And He has forgiven me because I have such a bigger sense of peace now that I cannot even describe as warm as the Sun feels when you walk outside. And you feel that heat radiating on your hair. I can feel that warmth of God no matter how much abuse you've had in your childhood, no matter how unloved you may feel."
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Beautiful Testimony Of A Former Prostitute - Susan.
"God is the only Father you will ever need and He can get you through every storm."
- I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. - (Philippians 4:13).
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